Sometimes I just break out dancing to the song in my head(:

Be a hand that reaches out. Be a smile for those who have no reason to smile. Be a light for those who live in darkness. Show them what it means to truly love, like Christ did for us(:

Today, many moons ago, Jesus rose from the dead after suffering an excruciatingly torturous death. I cannot imagine that kind of love. I deserve death. I deserve to have been up on that cross paying the price for my sin. He showed us the true meaning of love that day. A type of love unachievable by man. Guys it was not nails that held Him to the cross, it was a deep rooted unrivaled love for His dreadful people, aka you and me.

I had such a good time today, remembering all that Christ did and is doing for me. At church we did a silent drama, we acted out the song Above All by Michael W Smith. It was really good, gave me chills whiles performing it. Such a powerful thing, the love of Christ.

I need to share it more, His love, His story. I get so caught up in my life, and my story that God is just an after thought sometimes. But the truth is, He is my life and He has already got my story written. So encouraging, but hard to remember all the time.

I am blessed. Beautiful, supporting family. Amazing friends who are like my second family. And a Lord and Savior that loves me in spite of my humanity, in spite of the fact that I could not be less deserving of any of it. I life my life, I wouldn't trade with anyone in the world. It is far from perfect,  but I don't want perfect. God makes my life beautiful and He shows me the good parts. There are a lot of bad parts, and they far outweigh the good parts...But they don't get my attention. I focus on the good things. My glass is always half full and its never empty. People can try all they want to change me and bring me down but they'll fail. God is my rock, my fortress. You cannot get to me without going through Him and good luck getting through Him(:

Well world, I am gonna go watch some National Treasure with mi padre and mi madre(: Tootles you party animals.


I love you(:

If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.

Crying. Not something I enjoy doing. My eyes get puffy and red. I get that weird throat sniffle thing that makes you sound like you are hyperventilating. Its awful. But at least these tears are over. Tomorrow is a new day filled with possibilities and growth(: I am amazed what clarity a good cry brings.

Honesty has always been my policy. It is kinda a make it or break it thing with me. I deserve the truth and nothing but the truth so help me God. I am pretty much a court of law folks. I have been lied to enough so my lie-dar is pretty spot on. You lie to me and you get a large heaping of my verbal abuse upon you. See if I am willing to tell you the truth than how's bout you put on your big-boy/girl pants and do the same...kapish? Sweet action jackson.

Alrighty than, so basically I graduate college in a month. And well since I know that..I am all slacky migee when it comes to homework and you know actually going to class. It is awful. I remember when I was a goodie two shoes and now I am miss skipalottaclasses shoes. Oh well, I am already super smart so its whatever :P

Well as you know I have decided to get my BA in Business Communications. YAY. But hold the phone I didn't say when. As you all know money does not grow on trees (believe me, I have been searching for a money tree for years) so I have been hypothesizing scenarios in which I take a wee bit of time off from school and work my bum bum off to get a little money cushion so I don't end up with a zillion dollars in school loans that I'll be paying off till I am 150. Who wants that?? Not this guy. I feel like it is the most logical scenario for me. I mean for reals I am only 20 and so why rush my life. All that will do is age me and kill me faster. I want to get a degree, for sure, just not tomorrow. I have to do what God is telling me and last week He brought this scenario to my attention and so now I am just praying about it and WHOLEHEARTEDLY seeking God and His will. The nice thing about running my life this way is that, well all I have to do is pray and listen to Him and dude I am set for life(: It truly is the most beautiful part of life with Christ.

I cannot wait to be an actress you guys. SERIOUSLY. It'll be so neat. Imagine the possibilities. Thinking about it gives me goosebumps and it makes my face smile and my head swim. Lovely(:

You know what word I hate!? If. And maybe. They are so ominous and depressing. I like to use words of permanence. Like absolutely and definitely. And instead of 'if' I use 'when'. My motto is don't use words that don't mean anything substantial. Ya dig!? Word homebro.

Vampire Diaries was on tonight. Damon is an unhealthy obsession of mine. I think I more so love the character Ian Somerhalder is playing rather than Ian himself. Whatever he's a foxxy treat. Honestly its like his eyes pierce into my soul. So pretty and icy blue(: I very much dig his chili.

So I am getting my hair did tomorrow, pound it. Boom. So excited. Right now I am slightly rocking a mullet. Not even though cuz the shag growing atop my head  is not even cool enough to be labelled a mullet. Its outta this world that's for sure(: But yes new hair tomorrow, blondy-blond and finally some bangs. Hizahhhhh(:

Dudes its been smashing but I literally need to go shut my eyes for a good 7ish hours. But I love you and God loves you(:

♥Goodnight moon♥

Yo listen up here's a story about a little guy who lives in a blue world(:

Heyyyyyyyy there(: So its been a while. My bad. I have been so busy you can't even shake a stick at me. Visiting schools, GOING to school, being awesome..Its all so exhausting(: But someone's gotta do it. You know what's weird?? That exhausting has an 'h' in it. Odd word.

Ps guess who graduates in a month...THIS GUY. Nbd. I know I am straight g yo. So I dunno if you have noticed but its like wicked nice out. The sun is shining, the tank is clean...THE TANK IS CLEAN(: Dude and the snow is almost completely, miraculously gone and that makes me feel gitty. SPRING is here, WHOOP.

So I talked to my almost married sister and bro-bro in law tonight, I like them. My preggers sis had a baby shower yesterday and it was AWESOME. There was fruit pizza and diapers, like any good party(:  I think I am going crazy. All my days go by so fast, like I swear yesterday was Sunday. But its like my days are so cramped packed with BUSINESS that I don't even remember whether its Monday or Thursday. Not good. Also I decided to be an angelic daughter and go to a spinning class with mi madre on Tuesday morning. AT 5 FRICKEN O'CLOCK. I imagine getting up that early and exercising is a lot like what hell is gonna be like. It made me wish I was dead. Also I kept falling off the bike because it was like not suiting my proportions and I tried adjusting the bike but to no avail. Oh and get this, everyone was at least 40 and older. OH MY, party animals(: Needless to say no more early morning spinning classes for me.

I really cannot wait to see where God leads me after this summer. I could be in California at this time next year, oh my stars that would be boss. I would also be content staying here. Its whatever God has in store for me not what I WANT in store for me. I've found that when you lean on Him things work out better and actually you know FAVOR you(: He is a pretty, super neat guy. You should get to know Him(:

So dude that stuff in Japan is intense. Poor Japoninians. Praying for them and all the other areas affected.

Oh just in case you didn't already know, Vampire Diaries is on tomo. NBD.

Ugh choir tomorrow. Ugh. Singing in different languages. Ugh.

Well people faces its late and I gotta catch some z's. Its been real. Keep it fresh homebro's. I love you, but God loves you more!

Stay classy girl scout(:

Adventure is out there(:

Spring break was AMAZING. I spent 6 glorious days in California(: San Diego was ever so welcoming and the weather ever so accommodating. I spent the weekend in Laguna with  my great aunt, sister, and bro bro in law. Sooooooo lovely. We went to Saddleback church, where Rick Warren is pastor, and it was pretty neat. He is an interesting character, not sure how I feel about him and his plan for global peace. Its all too 'end times' for me. Maybe he and Obama are tag-teaming being the anti-christ. I did get to watch a civil forum with he and Tony Blair, it was pretty sweet. Tony is a neat guy, I had no clue who he was until I got to the event lol I thought he was that christian football coach :P Shows how much I know about politics.

I had a headache, it kinda sorta feels like a big sumo wrestler guy is sitting on my spine and jumping up and down on it as if I were a trampoline. Here's the deal, I'm not one so there is much pain.  It is going down into my shoulder and I feel as though I  may die. Or puke. Or both. Its pure awfulness.

Today I skipped class cause I am all sickly and lacking in the sleep department.  And tomo class is cancelled, huzzah for an extended spring break. 

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh more about my trip...I visited some schools and in June I am visiting more(: I went to the world famous San Diego zoo. Saw some awesome turtles, a zebra, and pandas(: Ouuuuuuu and flamingos. I think if I was an animal I would be a flamingo cause it is pink and awesome. I went to Coronado Beach which was my favorite spot ever, sparkly sand(: So beautiful. I miss the beach, and laying on it. I miss the feeling of the sand between my toes, and the sun beaming down on my white Minnesotan skin. I hung out with Mitchie every day and we had a blasty-blast. I ate at all my favorite west coast spots..Del Taco, In n Out burger, Ruby's Diner, Wing Stop...And some delightful sushi place that had epic wasabi that made me cry lol 

My plane landed and stepped into the terminal all golden tan. I continued on to baggage claim and out the airport doors, only to become depressed seeing goosebumps arise on my skin.  Minnesota you are dreadfully cold, and brutally lacking sunshine. Someday, hopefully before my sisters wedding in August, I'll see sunshine again. I can't wait for her wedding(: She'll be all married and there will be dancing and I will be pulling out all of my famous wedding dance moves tehehehehehe(:

So now I am home. And sick. And my room is messy. And I have to fill out FAFSA and college apps. And send my high school and college transcripts to schools. And do a lot of homework. And find time to sleep. And work. Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss chaos is the definition of my life. But the thing is, I love it. It is crazy but so am I. We suit each other(: I wouldn't trade my life for anyone elses. God is so good to me and He shows me so much love. I don't deserve it but He still does it.

I went to a retreat this weekend. It was epic. Dare2Share Un Tour(: It let me know that I need to be more tenacious about spreading the good news, i.e. the GOSPEL(:

G-god created us to be with Him.
O-our sins separate us from Him.
S-sins cannot be removed by good works.
P-paying the price for our sins Christ died and rose again.
E-everyone who believes in Him alone with have eternal life.
L-life with Christ starts now and lasts forever.

It was so challenging and beautiful; 2,300 kids from other churches all gathered at Grace Church in Eden Prairie. It was amazing to see and to be a part of. We met the guys who are in charge if it and they are sooooooooooooo stellar. I reallllllllllly love my Savior. He has always shown me nothing but love even though sometimes I deserve anything except love. I need to start being a better vessel. I need to start sharing Him with all who I come into contact with. He is the most important part of my life and so why would I not share that with everyone I meet?


I am so tired y'all and my head is POUNDING. But I love you, and remember: You are unique and awesome and God only made one you. So get out there and be you and be the best you that you can be. God has a perfect will for you and you alone. Live for Him and not the world. After all He died and rose again for you and everyone else in the world, now tell me..Would anyone else in this world be willing to do that?

Peace be with you(:

Having the time of my life(:

So this summer not only will I be a college graduate...I will also be an auntie and a sister-in-law.  God is so good and so gracious.  I am undeserving and at a loss for why He keeps blessing me so.

People are judgmental and love to pick apart your life and tell you everything ugly about it.  Here is the deal folks. I could give a flying leap what you think about me or my life.  The way I live is up to God, not you. He is my standard, not you. I used to let people views of me impact MY view of me, not anymore.  I have come to realize the view I want of myself is the view God has of me.  I am the only Tara Cassandra Yauch. The only me. I can do things that God has given ONLY ME the ability to do. I can never please man, and I do not want to. I want to bring glory to my Abba Father and to Him alone.

The world has been putting a lot of pressureS on me lately. 'Uh Tara, you're like 20..Shouldn't you be in a relationship and contemplating marriage and being a wife!?' Ex-squeeze me world, but uh if God wanted me in a relationship and contemplating marriage I WOULD BE. I very kindly tell them all to piss off(: Sometimes I feel like I NEED to be in one, a relationship, but the truth is..I really don't want to be. I have so much growing to do as a single gal. I wouldn't be becoming the person I am now if I was concerning myself with the menfolk. I am just seriously focusing so much on God and school, its like what boys? Never heard of em(: Call me whatever you want, hit me with whatever stereotype you want but I do not wanna just date around and have a bunch of meaningless flings. Sure maybe in high school I played that game, but looking back was it fulfilling and beneficial? Not one bit. It did provide mucho tears tho. Yay(: lol Nah but for realz I am just not gonna fall privy to anyone telling me what is acceptable for me to do. I don't care whats acceptable in anyone else eyes but my Lord and Saviors.

Stick that in your juice box and suck it.

So I said pressureS, as in plural. I am feeling bombarded. And not necessarily in a bad way. I mean its bad cause its all like nasty sin crap, but it is good because it is strengthening my faith and it is making me more coherently aware of the still small voice inside me. But that voice is becoming not so still and small. Its talking at a decibel that one would associate with you know yelling(: Its not scary. Its beautiful. Its comforting. Its my Jesus. He said I would be forever in His hand, protected and never neglected. I am so aware of that now(: He is like my blankie [blankie if you are reading this (which is impossible for you are indeed a piece of cloth without eyes, but nevertheless) you are still my blankie Jesus is just more of like you know an eternal blankie(:] Dude I think I am getting weirder, I just spoke to my blankie. Oh well, that's what I am here for...Supplying the daily dose of the werdie, you are welcome(:

Guys I am deciding on schools and it is like wicked hard. First off I leave for California in a well ONE DAY(: And second off, I have soooooooooooooooooooooooo very much a plethora of homework to accomplish over the break of spring. Poop. I hate school. Remind me again why I am signing on to do two more years?? Oh riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight so I can make denero and not be stuck working at Kwik Trip my whole life, not that that is not a totally legit job, it is just not for me(: I want to be an actress not pump gas for them(: Yay for being an actress!!

So as you can see it is late at night and I am at my prime crazy hour so to prevent further awkward remarks from yours truly I shall bid you adieu(: But I shall leave you with this, being a Christ follower is a never ending roller coaster rid of pure bliss. Yes sometimes it is sticky, but every sticky situation has an upside(: And everyone of your faces should wear a smile, cause life is too big a gift to ever be sad about it(:

Live long and prosper(:

I'm not a jealous person. I am just that girl that would love to punch every other girl that gives you a second look(:

Daddy was a preacher
She was his wife
Just trying to make the world a little better
You know, shine a light
People started talking
Just to hear their own voice
Those people tried to accuse my father
Said he made the wrong choice
Though it might be painful
You know that time will always tell
Those people have long since gone
My father never failed

Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts rising
Even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water

Even when the Earth crumbles under my feet
Even when the ones I love turn around and crucify me
I won't never ever let you down
I won't fall
I won't fall
I won't fall as long as you're around me

Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts rising
Even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water.

♥Washed By the Water--Needtobreathe

 

In your ocean I'm ankle deep

I feel the waves crashing on my feet;
It's like I know where I need to be
But I can't figure out,
I can't figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your wave washes over me,
There's only one way to figure out
Will you let me drown?
Will you let me drown?

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
'Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful.
Oh-oh... something beautiful.

And the water is rising quick,
And for years I was scared of it.
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side,
No, I can't leave your side.

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
'Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful.
Oh-oh... something beautiful,
Oh-oh... something beautiful.

In a daydream
I couldn't live like this
I wouldn't stop until I found something beautiful.
But when I wake up
And all I want, I have
You know it's still all I need - something beautiful.

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
'Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful.
Oh-oh... something beautiful,
Oh-oh... something beautiful

♥Something Beautiful--Needtobreathe

I love these songs and they some up my feelings at the moment(: God, I love you so much, thank you for always having my back. My life I give to you so that I may be used as a servant of yours forever!(:

So you're naked...

It has been like a wicked long time foo. My bad. I have been wicked busy. So February is almost over, seriously time is literally flying by. Its both fabulous and not fabulous. I am loving life tho(: It is almost spring break and CA is practically calling my name. It is so near I can literally smell the beach(: Oofta I can't wait. I get 6 beautiful days with my sister in sunny San Diego.

Glee club is going good, we are much better than the show :P lol Choir is pretty chill too. School in general is tight but I am more than ready to say farewell. Although since I have been on student senate its been a lot more fun(: We did a rally at the capital last Wednesday and it was AMAZING. There were over 450 students there making a statement and we were definitely not quiet. Tuition costs have risen exponentially in the past five years, and we were there to let them know that they should put a cap on that mother before no one can afford to further their education. It was so much fun. We met at St Paul College and marched to the capital as a huge mammoth group. We rallied for like 2 hours on the steps of the capital and naturally I lost my voice cause I hollered like it was my job. The group that came from Inver was so legit, the people are like my family now. After rallying we went back to the college to eat, yummy. Then we went back to the capital and met with our representatives. It was so beautifully empowering(: I loved every second of being so involved, I am always one to jump at the opportunity to make change happen. I felt like running for president after the day was over. No lie yo, it was that legit.

Work has been pretty mkay. I am of course looking for a second job because I have yet to win the lottery or find that darn money tree...Fingers crossed, and yo I will share with y'all if I do indeed stumble upon it. So its snowing, so surprising..I mean its like we live in Minnesota or something. People drive like nincompoops in this weather hence why I am staying indoors watching Xena Warrior Princess(: Bahahahaha this show is so legit. When I was little I watched it and it made me wish I could be all BA and fight bad guys...And throw this cool circle thing around that always came back to me like a boomerang.

I need a new phone...My stupid touch screen piece I have now sucks bum.

I can't wait to be an aunt. My niece is gonna be so cute, probably the cutest kid to every enter the world...Well besides me when I was born oh so long ago. That reminds me. I am almost 21, well in 5 months lol Wellllllllll it has been splendiferous catching up but I am gonna go get some grub.

Remember, God is love. He is there when you need Him, and He is there even when you think you don't. God has and always will have your best interest at heart. Don't give up on Him cause He has never given up on you! I love you, but God loves you more(:

~Toot to la fruit~