Adventure is out there(:

Spring break was AMAZING. I spent 6 glorious days in California(: San Diego was ever so welcoming and the weather ever so accommodating. I spent the weekend in Laguna with  my great aunt, sister, and bro bro in law. Sooooooo lovely. We went to Saddleback church, where Rick Warren is pastor, and it was pretty neat. He is an interesting character, not sure how I feel about him and his plan for global peace. Its all too 'end times' for me. Maybe he and Obama are tag-teaming being the anti-christ. I did get to watch a civil forum with he and Tony Blair, it was pretty sweet. Tony is a neat guy, I had no clue who he was until I got to the event lol I thought he was that christian football coach :P Shows how much I know about politics.

I had a headache, it kinda sorta feels like a big sumo wrestler guy is sitting on my spine and jumping up and down on it as if I were a trampoline. Here's the deal, I'm not one so there is much pain.  It is going down into my shoulder and I feel as though I  may die. Or puke. Or both. Its pure awfulness.

Today I skipped class cause I am all sickly and lacking in the sleep department.  And tomo class is cancelled, huzzah for an extended spring break. 

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh more about my trip...I visited some schools and in June I am visiting more(: I went to the world famous San Diego zoo. Saw some awesome turtles, a zebra, and pandas(: Ouuuuuuu and flamingos. I think if I was an animal I would be a flamingo cause it is pink and awesome. I went to Coronado Beach which was my favorite spot ever, sparkly sand(: So beautiful. I miss the beach, and laying on it. I miss the feeling of the sand between my toes, and the sun beaming down on my white Minnesotan skin. I hung out with Mitchie every day and we had a blasty-blast. I ate at all my favorite west coast spots..Del Taco, In n Out burger, Ruby's Diner, Wing Stop...And some delightful sushi place that had epic wasabi that made me cry lol 

My plane landed and stepped into the terminal all golden tan. I continued on to baggage claim and out the airport doors, only to become depressed seeing goosebumps arise on my skin.  Minnesota you are dreadfully cold, and brutally lacking sunshine. Someday, hopefully before my sisters wedding in August, I'll see sunshine again. I can't wait for her wedding(: She'll be all married and there will be dancing and I will be pulling out all of my famous wedding dance moves tehehehehehe(:

So now I am home. And sick. And my room is messy. And I have to fill out FAFSA and college apps. And send my high school and college transcripts to schools. And do a lot of homework. And find time to sleep. And work. Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss chaos is the definition of my life. But the thing is, I love it. It is crazy but so am I. We suit each other(: I wouldn't trade my life for anyone elses. God is so good to me and He shows me so much love. I don't deserve it but He still does it.

I went to a retreat this weekend. It was epic. Dare2Share Un Tour(: It let me know that I need to be more tenacious about spreading the good news, i.e. the GOSPEL(:

G-god created us to be with Him.
O-our sins separate us from Him.
S-sins cannot be removed by good works.
P-paying the price for our sins Christ died and rose again.
E-everyone who believes in Him alone with have eternal life.
L-life with Christ starts now and lasts forever.

It was so challenging and beautiful; 2,300 kids from other churches all gathered at Grace Church in Eden Prairie. It was amazing to see and to be a part of. We met the guys who are in charge if it and they are sooooooooooooo stellar. I reallllllllllly love my Savior. He has always shown me nothing but love even though sometimes I deserve anything except love. I need to start being a better vessel. I need to start sharing Him with all who I come into contact with. He is the most important part of my life and so why would I not share that with everyone I meet?


I am so tired y'all and my head is POUNDING. But I love you, and remember: You are unique and awesome and God only made one you. So get out there and be you and be the best you that you can be. God has a perfect will for you and you alone. Live for Him and not the world. After all He died and rose again for you and everyone else in the world, now tell me..Would anyone else in this world be willing to do that?

Peace be with you(:

Having the time of my life(:

So this summer not only will I be a college graduate...I will also be an auntie and a sister-in-law.  God is so good and so gracious.  I am undeserving and at a loss for why He keeps blessing me so.

People are judgmental and love to pick apart your life and tell you everything ugly about it.  Here is the deal folks. I could give a flying leap what you think about me or my life.  The way I live is up to God, not you. He is my standard, not you. I used to let people views of me impact MY view of me, not anymore.  I have come to realize the view I want of myself is the view God has of me.  I am the only Tara Cassandra Yauch. The only me. I can do things that God has given ONLY ME the ability to do. I can never please man, and I do not want to. I want to bring glory to my Abba Father and to Him alone.

The world has been putting a lot of pressureS on me lately. 'Uh Tara, you're like 20..Shouldn't you be in a relationship and contemplating marriage and being a wife!?' Ex-squeeze me world, but uh if God wanted me in a relationship and contemplating marriage I WOULD BE. I very kindly tell them all to piss off(: Sometimes I feel like I NEED to be in one, a relationship, but the truth is..I really don't want to be. I have so much growing to do as a single gal. I wouldn't be becoming the person I am now if I was concerning myself with the menfolk. I am just seriously focusing so much on God and school, its like what boys? Never heard of em(: Call me whatever you want, hit me with whatever stereotype you want but I do not wanna just date around and have a bunch of meaningless flings. Sure maybe in high school I played that game, but looking back was it fulfilling and beneficial? Not one bit. It did provide mucho tears tho. Yay(: lol Nah but for realz I am just not gonna fall privy to anyone telling me what is acceptable for me to do. I don't care whats acceptable in anyone else eyes but my Lord and Saviors.

Stick that in your juice box and suck it.

So I said pressureS, as in plural. I am feeling bombarded. And not necessarily in a bad way. I mean its bad cause its all like nasty sin crap, but it is good because it is strengthening my faith and it is making me more coherently aware of the still small voice inside me. But that voice is becoming not so still and small. Its talking at a decibel that one would associate with you know yelling(: Its not scary. Its beautiful. Its comforting. Its my Jesus. He said I would be forever in His hand, protected and never neglected. I am so aware of that now(: He is like my blankie [blankie if you are reading this (which is impossible for you are indeed a piece of cloth without eyes, but nevertheless) you are still my blankie Jesus is just more of like you know an eternal blankie(:] Dude I think I am getting weirder, I just spoke to my blankie. Oh well, that's what I am here for...Supplying the daily dose of the werdie, you are welcome(:

Guys I am deciding on schools and it is like wicked hard. First off I leave for California in a well ONE DAY(: And second off, I have soooooooooooooooooooooooo very much a plethora of homework to accomplish over the break of spring. Poop. I hate school. Remind me again why I am signing on to do two more years?? Oh riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight so I can make denero and not be stuck working at Kwik Trip my whole life, not that that is not a totally legit job, it is just not for me(: I want to be an actress not pump gas for them(: Yay for being an actress!!

So as you can see it is late at night and I am at my prime crazy hour so to prevent further awkward remarks from yours truly I shall bid you adieu(: But I shall leave you with this, being a Christ follower is a never ending roller coaster rid of pure bliss. Yes sometimes it is sticky, but every sticky situation has an upside(: And everyone of your faces should wear a smile, cause life is too big a gift to ever be sad about it(:

Live long and prosper(:

I'm not a jealous person. I am just that girl that would love to punch every other girl that gives you a second look(:

Daddy was a preacher
She was his wife
Just trying to make the world a little better
You know, shine a light
People started talking
Just to hear their own voice
Those people tried to accuse my father
Said he made the wrong choice
Though it might be painful
You know that time will always tell
Those people have long since gone
My father never failed

Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts rising
Even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water

Even when the Earth crumbles under my feet
Even when the ones I love turn around and crucify me
I won't never ever let you down
I won't fall
I won't fall
I won't fall as long as you're around me

Even when the rain falls
Even when the flood starts rising
Even when the storm comes
I am washed by the water.

♥Washed By the Water--Needtobreathe

 

In your ocean I'm ankle deep

I feel the waves crashing on my feet;
It's like I know where I need to be
But I can't figure out,
I can't figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your wave washes over me,
There's only one way to figure out
Will you let me drown?
Will you let me drown?

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
'Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful.
Oh-oh... something beautiful.

And the water is rising quick,
And for years I was scared of it.
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side,
No, I can't leave your side.

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
'Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful.
Oh-oh... something beautiful,
Oh-oh... something beautiful.

In a daydream
I couldn't live like this
I wouldn't stop until I found something beautiful.
But when I wake up
And all I want, I have
You know it's still all I need - something beautiful.

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
'Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful.
Oh-oh... something beautiful,
Oh-oh... something beautiful

♥Something Beautiful--Needtobreathe

I love these songs and they some up my feelings at the moment(: God, I love you so much, thank you for always having my back. My life I give to you so that I may be used as a servant of yours forever!(:

So you're naked...

It has been like a wicked long time foo. My bad. I have been wicked busy. So February is almost over, seriously time is literally flying by. Its both fabulous and not fabulous. I am loving life tho(: It is almost spring break and CA is practically calling my name. It is so near I can literally smell the beach(: Oofta I can't wait. I get 6 beautiful days with my sister in sunny San Diego.

Glee club is going good, we are much better than the show :P lol Choir is pretty chill too. School in general is tight but I am more than ready to say farewell. Although since I have been on student senate its been a lot more fun(: We did a rally at the capital last Wednesday and it was AMAZING. There were over 450 students there making a statement and we were definitely not quiet. Tuition costs have risen exponentially in the past five years, and we were there to let them know that they should put a cap on that mother before no one can afford to further their education. It was so much fun. We met at St Paul College and marched to the capital as a huge mammoth group. We rallied for like 2 hours on the steps of the capital and naturally I lost my voice cause I hollered like it was my job. The group that came from Inver was so legit, the people are like my family now. After rallying we went back to the college to eat, yummy. Then we went back to the capital and met with our representatives. It was so beautifully empowering(: I loved every second of being so involved, I am always one to jump at the opportunity to make change happen. I felt like running for president after the day was over. No lie yo, it was that legit.

Work has been pretty mkay. I am of course looking for a second job because I have yet to win the lottery or find that darn money tree...Fingers crossed, and yo I will share with y'all if I do indeed stumble upon it. So its snowing, so surprising..I mean its like we live in Minnesota or something. People drive like nincompoops in this weather hence why I am staying indoors watching Xena Warrior Princess(: Bahahahaha this show is so legit. When I was little I watched it and it made me wish I could be all BA and fight bad guys...And throw this cool circle thing around that always came back to me like a boomerang.

I need a new phone...My stupid touch screen piece I have now sucks bum.

I can't wait to be an aunt. My niece is gonna be so cute, probably the cutest kid to every enter the world...Well besides me when I was born oh so long ago. That reminds me. I am almost 21, well in 5 months lol Wellllllllll it has been splendiferous catching up but I am gonna go get some grub.

Remember, God is love. He is there when you need Him, and He is there even when you think you don't. God has and always will have your best interest at heart. Don't give up on Him cause He has never given up on you! I love you, but God loves you more(:

~Toot to la fruit~

Wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy :)

My dreams have been wicked awful lately. I wake up and I'm like what the heck was that all about. But it's cool cuz they are just dreams, my reality is way better :) God has been really awesome. I mean He is always awesome but lately He has just been exceptionally awesome. I adore where my life is and where it is heading. I have been looking at a lot of schools and it's very exciting. I am gonna visit some schools in Cali when I go out there for spring break.. Woo who :)

In YG we have been watching a video series about finding your purpose in life. It is so good. We have been exploring the other religions and that has just confirmed that my God, the creator and He who holds my heart is the only way; He's the truth and the life. This has gotten me very excited for dare 2 share in march. YG has been so instrumental is helping me grow in my faith, I have had so many opportunities to share my faith and that has in turned strengthened my faith. I truly know what I believe and I know what I believe to be the truth and I know it to be the only truth. That is so encouraging. I just feel so blessed and empowered to just let everyone know about my Jesus. It has been on my heart lately. I know I haven't been doing enough to tell others about Him. I have been concerned with fitting in instead of standing out and having people think I'm a freak. Think what you want, God is my life and no longer will that be something I remain quiet about.

School is actually pretty wicked awesome. I have gotten way active in stuff this semester. Mostly cuz its my last semester and wanna get the most outta it :) But I am on student senate and in Glee Club. Also I am joining choir. I am very excited to be a part of it. God is gonna use me I just know it. Sometimes I wonder why He takes me down the roads He does but in the end it is so very clear :) Life is really sticky sometimes and believe I just want to collapse and cry and let it all come down one me. But the nice thing about having the relationship with God that I do is that He takes that all away, as soon as I ask Him to. Those feelings are human and natural and He is the only one who can take them away and replace them with joy. That gives me such peace to know that. Cuz seriously some days I want to curl in a ball and cry, and sometimes I do. But God is there for me and knowing that makes everything better and it makes all the bad stuff seem way insignificant. I mean really it is, in the bigger picture it means absolutely nothing so why focus on it.

My life has changed so much in the past year. It was flipped upside and than built upside right by my gracious Savior and amazing family and friends. People have always been a passion of mine and it is awesome having people that have your back 175% anytime you need them. Because when you are a people person you tend to be the one who encourages and does all the talking and consoling, so it is nice to have people in my life who can do the same for me when I need it. God has been weeding out the false ones for the past year. And that has been rough because that is people I thought loved me through thick and thin but it turns out they were those fare-weather type friends. Who needs those? I certainly don't. People taking advantage of my niceness is not going to go over well. My philosophy is be the type of friends to others that you want others to be to you.

Deep stuff guys. I love you. Remember God has such a splendiferous purpose for your life, just trust Him...Take His hand and embark on all the gloriousness He has set out for you; you and only you can fulfill the purpose He has for you. You are the only one with that unique tailor made purpose. Own it :)

.Tootles y'all.

Auntie Tara :)

So school has started and I kinda sorta love it. I am taking me some voice lessons! Getting my diva on ;) I joined student senate and was asked to audition for the Inver Hills production of The Servant of Two Masters. I was so flattered to be asked but I just don't have the time to devote to practice. Which totally blows cause I mean as a career I want to be an actress, but right now I gotta focus on graduating and getting my degree on. God has been smiling down on me a lot lately. My life is so so so so blessed. I totally do not deserve any of it. I have decided to get my BA. Not from Inver but from a university :)

I am so excited about the future I could pee. Seriously loving my life. My sister is preggers, with a baby. I AM SO EXCITED. See what I mean about God smiling down on  my life?? Like seriously. God is so big, never underestimate what he is capable of doing. Today at youth group I saw Him big time. I truly adore being a leader at church. Seeing the kids grow and hearing them talk about their faith honestly makes my heart so overflowed with joy. True, pure, everlasting joy; that only God can allow you to feel through His Spirit.

It is amazing to look back and see where my life used to be and then compare that to where I am now. I am baffled at the work God has done in me. My life is at a place that I never thought I would be. I am completely content with everything. He is making magic happen in my life. I cannot wait to see where He will take me in 2011 and I am so ready.

Well I gotta skedaddle, I love you.

♥ Tootles my lovelies!

Insomnia, its what's for dinner.

A girl can dream...Let's face it God knows what he is doing, so whatever happens, happens. I just really need to sit back and let God show me what's up. I am being way to forceful with what I think should be His will for my life, instead I need to just let Him show me in His time.

Patience has never been one of my strong suits, but I hoping that the lemons life has been handing me lately will help me attain some, somehow. God is the most important part of my life and I loose sight of that sometimes.

Not anymore.

I vow to remember who I belong to. I vow to talk with God daily. I vow to read the precious words He has written for me. I vow to love Him unconditionally and without pause. And I vow to share Him with the world every single opportunity that I am given.

When I mess up..I am gonna fess up. When I fess up..I am gonna shape up. From here on out I'll be a better me. Someone He can be proud of; someone I can be proud of. God deserves that from me; well actually He deserves so much more.

I wish I was more than just a mere human. I wish I was someone He could count on, like He is for me. He has given me so much, and I have given back so little. I am a awful sinner who deserves death, and yet daily He gives to me.. LIFE. He protects me and loves me no matter what. I only wish I acted the same towards Him. Sometimes there are days I go without saying a single word to Him. Not one peep. Sometimes I don't even pick up my Bible, for weeks at a time. And worst of all there are days when I keep Him all to myself and let opportunities of sharing Him with others fall by the wayside. Those are the days when I let my stupid humanity win. I put myself first and Him last; that is something I will always hate about myself. It is so easy to do what I want. When in all actuality what He wants for me is what I should want for myself, because it is what I need. Needing and wanting are two very different things. I need Him all day, everyday.

He is there. Waiting. Just waiting. Waiting for me to seek His face. Waiting for me to come to Him empty handed and wanting to be filled. I am gonna shape up. I am gonna seek Him daily. I am gonna loose myself in Him and resurface a new Tara. Consumed by His love and Spirit. I will be different, I will be better. I cannot go on just being a spiritual zombie. I need to be on fire. I need a zest for life. A zest that can only come from God. So that I can start truly living, and make each moment of my infinitesimal life count. I love you.

Nightie night (maybe, my mind is going a million miles a minute right now :P).

Peace. Out.