Tell your storm how BIG your God is.

So folks its been a while. Life has been insane. Work has been going good, suppa intense right now as I am trying to learn everything right quick so I can start doing my managerial duties. Ugh, who had a long work weekend?? This guy. It has been good though. I work with some lovely characters. God has definitely put me at this job for a reason. I have already been able to share my faith and been asked lotsa questions. I find it so THRILLING to talk about my faith. I have really started OWNING what I believe in and I think that is why it comes so naturally now to just be open about who my God is and how He has changed me :) Last night I got to talk about my faith some more to one of my besties who is struggling. It is so amazing watching Him work and feeling Him use me. I can't express to you the high I get when I talk about my Jesus. He has taken over my life and I can't imagine doing anything without Him. In Him alone I find my strength to get through the day to day. I struggle in my humanity so often but He is right there to grab my hand and pick me up and set me straight. His path is so beautiful but I stray from it time and time again. I wish I could just stick with it and not let my stupid human impatience deter me. But that is part of life, its my free will. It is me being a selfish human. It worries me sometimes that He'll realize what a failure I am. But you see the beauty of having Him as my heavenly father is that He will always love me and always want me. I can't fathom that kind of love because that kind of sincere never failing love is a God thing. It is something I can never humanly experience. I wanna say I love Him that way, unfailing. But I can't because I fail Him more often than not. I love Him as much as humanly possible! He holds my entire life in His hands. I trust His will and plan for my life. I know that things will not always go my way but they will always go His way. Patience is something I am learning more and more each day. I have days where I am so discouraged and down trodden with life. But those are the days I am living for me. The days I am the happiest are when I am living my God. So I am taking each day in stride. Each day should be Gods and I am working on making that reality in my own life. I am so grateful for Him and what He as done. I could talk about how amazing He is all day everyday :)

Dang well I gotta go to work so I can bring home the bacon. Whoop.

Peace out girl scout.

Thanks Doctor Phyllis :)

Oh you know just eating a brown sugar and cinnamon pop-tart after writing some amazing additions to our scene for acting. Dude my photography teacher grades like a dick. He is too hyper-critical, its like hey douche this is an online course its not like I can express to you what I am trying to portray what I am trying to capture and it is not like you are able to interpret my tone and the connotation when I do express it. See what I mean?? So frustrating. I have said this before but this time I really mean it, I will not be taking another online course. TOO HARD. Member that one time when I started college and did all my classes online? Yeah I basically wanted to die everyday. There is just something about human interaction that I just cherish too much, I mean there are some characters at Inver that I would rather not interact with but I take them over being hans solo.

The past couple days have been soooooo amazing. I got to see my aunt and uncle on Friday and have some yummy Famous Dizzle's with them. Yesssssssssssss I went to IHOP with my lovely mama and my Emily and Alex. People stared it was awesome. Than we went shopping :):) I love me some shopping. Jessie had a fabulous bday party where we danced it up like nobody's business. EmEm, Al, and I watched Tuck Everlasting, I totally forgot how sad that was. I do not like crying. I do it often though, this morning at church they showed a video for operation Christmas child and guess who cried... THIS GUY :) Seriously I am such an emotional person. Its just who I am.

Ugh I have to work till 10:30 tomorrow and then I have an epically huge Exam in Nat D's to take the next day. Kill me. I hate school, correction, I hate homework. School is pretty tight. I like most of the people (red shorts creeps me out lol) and my prof's are all pretty legit. One semester left and then a tiny month is the summer and the school ship is sailing away. Yesssssssssss I so cannot wait. And then I can just work and work until I got me some money to move to San Diego, California baby. I am so ready for that part of my life to start.

It was kinda pooey outside today, cold and rainy. I like rain tho, and sweatshirts :) So it wasn't totally awful! Plus it was Sunday, my favorite day of the week :) I always love Sundays!!!!

If you are not leading your heart, someone or something else will♥

Night bizzles :):)

I just want to be the only girl, you love all your life!

I was meant to be by your side
And I have waited here a long time
For you to turn around and notice me
But now you're here holding hands with me.

Walk me down the middle of the county fair
Walk me down the middle like you don't care
Walk me by the ferris wheel
And make sure she sees
Let the whole world know you belong to me.

I heard about your bitter end
About how she stole your heart and put it back again
Well I may not be the prettiest girl around
But I sure am a sight for sore, sore eyes.

Walk me down the middle of Main Street
Walk me down where the whole town will be
I don't need no parade
But make sure that she sees.


Let the whole word know you belong to me.

I'd walk through fire for you
Walk through barbed wire for you
I'd walk for miles, it's true
Just to be with you.

If you walk me down the middle of my momma's church
Walk me down that aisle in your finest shirt
Let the whole world know you will
Walk me down the middle of the county fair
Walk me down the middle like you don't care
Walk me by the ferris wheel
And make sure they see
Let the whole world know you belong to me
You belong to me.

♥♥♥♥♥♥

Oh look, a rainbow ;)

I carved a totally PIMP pumpkin today. So sick nasty foo. I took a picture with it making the same face. It was legit. I love church so much, I look forward to Wednesdays and Sundays :)))))))))) God was so goooooooooooooooood today. I really enjoy sharing Him with people. Talking about Him makes my heart smile and my head swim with happiness. I got to talk about and my faith A LOT today. Felt like Christmas morning!!!!!!

My awesome friends, Shylah and Erin, got me The Band Perry CD because I was unable to attend the concert due to stupid college. I love them<3 School was lovely today, I am so excited to do our scene for acting. Gonna be legit, and people will be truly riveted :))))))) I kinda heart school sometimes. This semester is pretty kick butt!

God is lovely when He answers prayers. I am so grateful that He allows me to talk to Him. He has given me so much and I want to return the favor by living my life for Him. I struggle sometimes with giving my silly human worries to Him. I want things done in my time and I want them to happen my way. Bad Tara. It is so hard to trust His will sometimes. I wish it wasn't, it would make things a lot easier. I am getting better at trusting His will more and more though. I just have my dumb Tara moments every now and then where I try to do everything myself. Patience and I have never really seen eye to eye, but I am getting much better. Waiting won't hurt me, right?? ;)

The weather was pleasant today :) I got to wear a sweatshirt, it was deeeeeeeelightful!!!! I am so excited for the corn maze next Thursday, gonna be EPIC. I am inviting friends, cuz I have those :))))))) I love people, they are so nice and fun. And I like talking to them A LOT. Good thing I am not a violent person. My hair was exceptionally large today, it was glorious!!!! I adore my curly locks. I like random things. I love when they happen. They sneak up on me and make me smile :))))))

Well I gotta do some research on this New Zealand volcano thing, dumb. And finish my paper-nizzle! Well y'all, peace out.

Stay classy.

There goes the neighborhood...

God gave me an amazing day today. The weather was insanely lovely and school was smashing. I am truly gonna miss my English class. I mean it will be glorious to know longer have ta whip out a mondo paper but I will miss seeing the people T/Th and my prof. He is legit. Now that I no longer have to fret about that paper I have three other papers to DWELL on and two exams. College is mean. Its like a giant cotton headed ninny muggin.

I had an interesting evening. I am not one for drama. Or crying. Okay fine I cry all the time, but its not something I enjoy LOL My evening consisted of both. But I am a strong girl. I don't stay down for long. I have an amazing life because of an amazing GOD, honestly I need nothing else to make me content. God is my source of joy, actually He is my source of everything. I don't do well when I try to do things myself, and He knows that. I enjoy when He slaps sense into me, it makes everything a whole heck of a lot clearer and making decisions is suddenly so easy peasy. I love my life!

So I shopped for some work cloth-age after MN History today. No such luck. See, who wears khakis and polos anymore? I feel like a suppa-prep lol Not fun. I wish Luke would let me wear fun stuff. Like jeans and nice shirts. I look home schooled when I could be looking suppa fly!

I got a green coat today. It is plaid and awesome. I don't typically like green but it was 8 bucks and cute, so I am not complaining. I kinda, sorta adore shopping. When I am a celebrity I'll prolly do it er'day. Ahhhhhhhhh so stoked. Look out Rodeo Drive, hurricane Tara is coming.

I have really awesome people in my life. Honestly God blessed me a hundred fold with all the amazing people He has in my life. Each day they encourage me and love me unconditionally. I'm a social butterfly, but I need my posse. I need my core group. And I have the best one out there. Thank you Jesus :))) I also happen to have the most amazing family. My mommy and daddy are too legit to quit. My 3 babe-a-licious sisters are my BEST friends and each of them make me smile, they are my rays of sunshine on a cloudy day. And my Emily, sister from another mister. That girl came into my life just last year and already she's family forever, I love her. I am a lover, once I meet you and I like you, you become family :)))

I pride myself on being honest. On being trustworthy. On being a good listener and someone people want to come and talk to and get sound advice. Those are things I view as strong areas in my life. I like being a good friend. I like being a good daughter and making my mommy and daddy proud. I like being a good student, making good grades. I like being around people, no I LOVE IT. I like setting goals and meeting them. I like planning. I adore serving my heavenly father and bringing glory and honor to Him and His kingdom. I love making good choices, doesn't mean I always do, but I sure try. I like telling people stories. I like the fact that my dreams could/should be made into movies. I like movies. I love talking. I like when people let me talk. I don't mind being called weird, cuz people let's face it I AM. But that is who I am, which something that will never change :)))

I really like writing. I know it is 1 in the morning and I should be chasing fireflies in dream-land but alas I am wide awake. So my dear lilies, I part with this.. Don't put Twinkies on your pizza :)))

Stay classy.

One scarred hand to the other!!

Today was ever so lovely. I woke up wanted to make some spaghetti with Betty White. I wish she was grandma. That'd be epic. Yoga was intense this morning. Stupid Inver heat control guys had the heat on in the activities building so the gym was effing hot. So basically I did hot yoga this morning, WAAAAY more work than normal yoga. My body is still shaky! Good times though. Acting was amazing as well. Erin, Gretchen, and I are gonna rock our monologue! I get to play Cinderella :))))) I have two scripts to memorize in the next couple weeks. Good thing I rock at memorization lol

This weather is intense dude. It is like summer. I am not complaining but I would like fall back. I like my sweatshirt weather. I wore my ugh boots and my new Calvin Klein sweater today, even tho it was 80 degrees. Its October, I will not wear shorts and a tank top. Now is the time when I do not have to worry if my legs are hairy or if I got me a nice golden tan. But this weather is playing with my emotions. It is making me feel white and hairy. When usually I am rather content with 'fall Tara'. Its okay though, can't bring me down. I am just gonna soak up the nice sunshine, leg hair and pale skin and all :)))

My paper is coming along. I actually made it longer. It is now 13 pages :))) I just have so much to say! Guys I have already been in school for two months. So legit. I cannot believe how fast time is going by. It is crazy. I love it though, each second of each day is sensational.

I am gonna start going to generation revival with Gretchen on Friday nights. I am so stoked. So ready for God to do some amazingness in me and through me. I start work today. In an hour, YAY. I am wearing a super cute polo and khakis. BABE-alicious. I though that you know after I left Ocs I would not have to ever wear polos or khakis again, so guess who got rid of all of her polos in attempt to stick it to Ocs?? Yep this guy. Emily was gracious enough to donate three of them to the polos for Tara fund. Any other donations are welcomed :)) I gotta get more khakis to. I have one pair. I could just always wear the same pants. I could be THAT girl. I'd rather not. :)))

So you know when people butt/pocket dial you??? Like 8 times a day?? (cough Levi) lol It is so much fun. His pocket and I have become best butties ;) See now every time he calls I assume its his pocket so I REJECT the call. That's right. Rejection. Hahahaha I am a really mean person. I am gonna start calling him and just laying the phone down at random places or handing it to random (unprecarious of course) people :)

I need to start traveling the world y'all. Yes the US is grand, love it. But see I wanna SEE things. I have a passport that has yet to be stamped. I intend to change that after graduation. Maybe I will win the lottery and I can just take 2 years of my life and SEE everything!!!!!!! That sounds so amazing, it makes my face burst with smiles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I gotta skedaddle y'all. I am a working girl now. Not in a scandalous way of course. ;)

Peace out girl scout.

Stupid girl, shoulda known.

I am not usually someone who gives a second thought to a negative comment from an unimportant no-good d-dag person but apparently today was a different story. Don't say something about who I am and what I can do, especially if you don't even know me. That just pisses me clear off.

Good now that I got that off my chest. Today was lovely :) Church was amazing, my daddy is a fabulous pastor. Heard a much needed sermon about the 10 commandments. God has been really kicking me in the butt lately, but I need it so its a good thing. Sometimes it is discouraging because I don't feel worthy of having a Savior amazing as Him love someone like me. I mean I know I am not an awful person but I am no way up to par to be in His family. I am so glad He wants me though. I try to picture my life without Him, and I can't even do it. My life is so immersed in Him that if I didn't have Him I wouldn't have a life to live. I live each day to be used by Him in any way He sees fit. Such an amazing Father.

We had hamburgers for lunch today. I need to remember to never eat that for a first date. Not a pretty picture for a first impression :) They are so tasty though. I like me some BEEF. I would make an awful vegetarian, I don't know how they do it. I watched Anchorman for the first time in forever today. HILARIOUS. That movie pretty much defined my life in 9th and 10th grade lol Quotes from the movie were like the only things in my vocabulary. That and Finding Nemo, and Elf. lol I am so cool. I start my job tomorrow. Hopefully I am good at assisting the manager. Free movie rentals, WHAT?? Be jealous, be very jealous.

I do not want to go to my History class on Tuesday. Erin, Shylah, and I wanna go see The Band Perry in Richfield. I just can't decide if I should skip my 3 hour class. I shall decide tomorrow. Ugh I gotta go cite sources for my paper. I reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally do not want to. I hate citations. It makes me wanna pull my hair out and punch things in the face. Well tootles.

Thanks for stopping by.

Outta my, outta my HEAD.

Well folks, top notch weekend. Such a lovely time with my beautiful family! Hilton hotel is fancy, Paris' grandpa knew what he was doing. She, however, is another story for different day. We got to the spiff-pants hotel and then up to our room on the 10th floor (long fall), nestled in and then off to get some grubbage. Zelo's is wonderful, tastes like candy-canes on Christmas. I got the Margarita flat-bread, it was pretty legit. After din din we walked around BEA-utiful Minneapolis, taking in the lovely city and enjoying the fabulous fall (although it was a tidge warmer than average MN fall weather) weather. We mozied on back to our room and played an EPIC game, it is something hard to explain so we'll have to just play sometime. People should know better than to play games late at night with me, needless to say things were said that are not blog appropriate. LOL I volunteered to sleep on the floor, silly Tarda. I had to use Alex's blanket and it smelled like feet :)) Ha. I got to sleep with the silly pillows tho ;))) Ah I love my life. This weekend was seriously so legit. Today we shopped till we dropped, I got to see the best frennn. Met her at the ole Barnes and Noble. Oooooooohhhhhh guess who got a new Audrey Hepburn piece of art for her room?????? THIS GUY :D Its lovely, I just have to find room for it.

You know what I have been thinking a lot about lately?? God. I've been struggling with following HIS will and not just living my OWN will. How lame am I?? Its so easy to follow me. I don't understand why I can't just give it HIM and be like God thank you so much for taking this burden from  me. Like here's the deal, I talk with Him and I say I am giving up my stubborn desire to write my own story but in reality those are just words cuz I keep having to tell Him the same thing. Good thing he has an abundance of patience. Its the easy things that are the hardest to actually follow through with. Sounds silly but its true. I love HIM. I trust HIM. I want to follow His will, and stop writing my own cause it is EXHAUSTING. I like to think that He is planning some amazing things for me, I am just so excited to see what he has for me. I have so much I wanna do, I am just having a hard time differentiating between what is HIS and whats MINE. You know? Like what is His doing and what is me driven. Although maybe some things need to be me driven? God lives inside me, so each decision I make has HIM in it. So maybe my problem is I need to just calm the frick down and let Him continue to do His thing. Seriously people ever since I got back from World Changers, God and I have been so in sync. Like before I think I was kinda spiritually asleep, I mean I was definitely living for Him, but not LOUD enough. Well people, I AM LOUD now. God woke me up and now no one can shut me up!! Suck it Satan.

Ughhhhhh someone please do my homework. I will give you a really big hug. Maybe even a high five. Very nice. Also you can clean my room. Lovely. You rock and I love you.

Stay classy San Diego.

Its dark at 5:30 in the morning..

I really enjoy sleep. I could do it all day everyday. But alas I have school, and a life. Both of which are highly overrated. I feel pretty rested today considering I have already been up for 3 hours. Got my Perkins on this morning, lovely french toast and eggs :))) Like mama always says breakfast is the most important meal of the day. I have a lot of homework to do this weekend. I am thinking about hiring someone to do my homework for me. And take my tests. Like I will go to school and learn and take notes, and then they will take the tests and do the work. I think that sounds like an IDEAL arrangement. Don't you all volunteer at once :) My English professor called my paper snarky lol But he gave me rave reviews so I am happy. Vampire Diaries is on tonight, I'm only so excited I might pee my panties. NBD. Emily and I are going to make cookies to eat whiles we watch our men, Mr. Paul Wesley and Mr. Ian Somerhalder. What babes!!!

You know when you lay awake at night and your mind will not fricken shut off!?!? Yeah me too. Mine just likes to go go go go 24/7 and see that's real grrrrrrreat and all but TARA LIKES SLEEP. Maybe I need to start taking sleeping pills, or tranquillizers lol Gosh dangit Bernice :D

I got a mani/pedi with Brit yesterday. It was glorious. We also saw Easy A. Emma is fabulous and I think her and I should be best friends. Penn could not have been more adorable in that movie. The parents are legit to, OH MY pee my pants funny.

Ughhhhhhhh I have natural disasters in two hours. KILL ME. My stupid teacher took all of my quiz points cause my fricken phone decided to go off in class even though it was on silent and I couldn't get that darn thing to shut up and so she was like yelling at me and I was pretty much crying (lol) and then she was like you are going to loose all your quiz points today. What a douche. Apparently we are 5 years old. Well I guess from now on I, Tara Yauch, will be shutting my phone of in class.

May graduation cannot come soon enough :))))))))))))))))))))) That's all folks.